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BURDENS
"Why was my burden so heavy?" I slammed the bedroom door
and leaned
against it. Is there no rest from this life? I wondered.
I stumbled to my
bed and dropped onto it, pressing my pillow around my
ears to shut out
the noise noise of my existence.
"Oh God," I cried, "let me sleep. Let me sleep forever
and never wake
up!" With a deep sob I tried to will myself into
oblivion, then welcomed
the blackness that came over me. Light surrounded me as
I regained
consciousness. I focused on its source: the figure of a
man standing
before a cross. "My child," the person asked, "why did
you want to come
to Me before I am ready to call you?"
"Lord, I'm sorry. It's just that... I can't go on. You
see how hard it is
for me. Look at this awful burden on my back. I simply
can't carry it
anymore."
"But haven't I told you to cast all of your burdens upon
Me, because I
care for you? My yoke is easy, and My burden is light."
"I knew You
would say that. But why does mine have to be so heavy?"
"My child,
everyone in the world has a burden. Perhaps you would
like to try a
different one?" "I can do that?"
He pointed to several burdens lying at His feet. "You
may try any of
these."
All of them seemed to be of equal size. But each was
labeled with a same.
"There's Joan's," I said. Joan was married to a wealthy
businessman.
She lived in a sprawling estate and dressed her three
daughters in the
prettiest designer clothes. Sometimes she drove me to
church in her
Cadillac when my car was broken.
"Let me try that one." How difficult could her burden
be? I thought. The
Lord removed my burden and placed Joan's on my
shoulders. I sank to my
knees beneath its weight. "Take it off!" I said. "What
makes it so
heavy?"
"Look inside."
I untied the straps and opened the top. Inside was a
figure of her
Mother-in-law, and when I lifted it out, it began to
speak. "Joan,
you'll never be good enough for my son," it began. "He
never should have
married you. You're a terrible mother to my
grandchildren..."
I quickly placed the figure back in the pack and
withdrew another. It
was Donna, Joan's youngest daughter. Her head was
bandaged from the
surgery that had failed to resolve her epilepsy. A third
figure was
Joan's brother. Addicted to drugs, he had been convicted
of killing a
police officer. "I see why her burden is so heavy, Lord.
But she's
always smiling and helping others. I didn't realize..."
"Would you like to try another?" He asked quietly. I
tested several.
Paula's felt heavy: She was raising four small boys
without a father.
Debra's did too: a childhood of sexual abuse and a
marriage of emotional
abuse. When I came to Ruth's burden, I didn't even try.
I knew that
inside I would find arthritis, old age, a demanding
full-time job, and a
beloved husband in a nursing home.
"They're all too heavy, Lord," I said. "Give back my
own."
As I lifted the familiar load once again, it seemed much
lighter than the
others. "Lets look inside" He said. I turned away,
holding it close.
"That's not a good idea," I said. "Why?" "There's a lot
of junk in
there." "Let Me see."
The gentle thunder of His voice compelled me. I opened
my burden. He
pulled out a brick. "Tell me about this one." "Lord, You
know. It's
money. I know we don't suffer like people in some
countries or even the
homeless here in America. But we have no insurance, and
when the kids get
sick, we can't always take them to the doctor. They've
never been to a
dentist. And I'm tired of dressing them in
hand-me-downs."
"My child, I will supply all of your needs... and your
children's. I've
given them healthy bodies. I will teach them that
expensive clothing
doesn't make a person valuable in My sight." Then He
lifted out a figure
of a small boy. "And this?" He asked. "Andrew..." I hung
my head, ashamed
to call my son a burden. "But, Lord, he's hyperactive.
He's not quiet
like the other two. He makes me so tired. He's always
getting hurt, and
someone is bound to think I abuse him.
I yell at him all the time. Someday I may really hurt
him...."
"My child," He said, "if you trust Me, I will renew your
strength, If you
allow Me to fill you with My Spirit, I will give you
patience." Then He
took some pebbles from my burden. "Yes, Lord," I said
with a sigh.
"Those are small. But they're important. I hate my hair.
It's thin, and
I can't make it look nice. I can't afford to go to the
beauty shop. I'm
overweight and can't stay on a diet. I hate all my
clothes. I hate the
way I look!"
"My child, people look at your outward appearance, but I
look at your
heart. By My Spirit you can gain self-control to lose
weight. But your
beauty should not come from outward appearance. Instead,
it should come
from your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle
and quiet spirit,
which is of great worth in My sight."
My burden now seemed lighter than before. "I guess I can
handle it now" I
said. "There is more," He said. "Hand Me that last
brick." "Oh, You
don't have to take that. I can handle it." "My child,
give it to Me."
Again His voice compelled me. He reached out His hand,
and for the first
time I saw the ugly wound. "But, Lord, this brick is so
awful, so nasty,
so.....Lord! What happened to Your hands? They're so
scarred!" No
longer focused on my burden, I looked for the first time
into His face.
In His brow were ragged scars-as though someone had
pressed thorns into
His flesh.
"Lord," I whispered. "What happened to You?" His loving
eyes reached
into my soul. "My child, you know. Hand Me the brick. It
belongs to Me.
I bought it." "How?" "With My blood." "But why, Lord?"
"Because I
have loved you with an everlasting love. Give it to Me."
I placed the
filthy brick into His wounded palm. It contained all the
dirt and evil
of my life: my pride, my selfishness, the depression
that constantly
tormented me.
He turned to the cross and hurled my brick into the pool
of blood at its
base. It hardly made a ripple. "Now, My child, you need
to go back. I
will be with you always. When you are troubled, call to
Me and I will
help you and show you things you cannot imagine now."
"Yes, Lord, I will call on You." I reached to pick up my
burden. "You
may leave that here if you wish. You see all these
burdens? They are the
ones that others have left at My feet. Joan's, Paula's,
Debra's,
Ruth's.....When you leave your burden here, I carry it
with you.
Remember, My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
As I placed my burden with Him, the light began to fade.
Yet I heard Him
whisper, "I will never leave you, nor forsake you." A
peace flooded my
soul.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I
will give you
rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am
gentle and
humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is
easy and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30)
THE CROSS
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain,
There will always be sunshine after the rain,
Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready to answer your call.
He knows every heartache, sees every tear,
A word from His lips can calm every fear.
Your sorrows may linger throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish at dawn's early light.
The savior is waiting somewhere above,
To give you His grace and send you His love.
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain,
God always sends rainbows after the rain.
I love you,
JESUS
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